how come my heart still pain and hurt... is it bcos our r/s going to 3yrs and i too used to it... i really hope is for the time-being only... so many many days, i did not had a good and proper meal le... end up, i lost 5kg... feel that no wei kuo to eat anything at all... this few wks mostly juz drink water.. dun have any wei kuo to take any rice or so on... i juz hope that time can faster passed... so that i can fully recovered.. This test is a very major test for me.. going to 3yrs r/s, end up still de same things happen... i really need to overcome it... I know that u this type of guy is not worth for me to do this and tat for u... included how u hurt me... how u lie to me... but ur hurt wont as much as me...

I now only can take it easy and try to overcome asap!!!!
Without u, i really hope that i can be a happy gal..
Y muz i act like so relax and happy but my heart was so bloody hurt inside.. how come i try to act strong in front of every1, but end up i still will at one corner cry... i really dun love u.. i feel that de hurt u give me is more than enough to kill me... i really dun love u anymore.. i juz suspect i myself cry, is u hurt me to deep or sth else.. I really dunnoe.. i dun know how long i can i still can tk it... i try to act strong and happy.. but y, when i alone de time, all those mermories juz came out.. i had alot alot of laughter frenz.. i try to joke ard and try to hide everything up.. try to be strong and try to stand up by my own feet.. but sometime said is easier for me but do is harder for me... i had try my very best, i juz need time.. i really hope that times can heal everything..