Do u think we still can like the past ma??

This is de 1st time i type all my words out.. cos i know that my heart towards u is more n more faded liao le.. sorry to said that.. now this issue shld i heart pain n heart broken?? In this r/s, de most heart pain, is not u scold me or shout at me.. is de fling that u started few mths ago.. The way that u how to lie, cheat me n so on.. de ever heart pain that u gave me, is not that immature or childish.. de ever heart broken is that u cant keep ur promises at all.. 2yrs plus le.. ur promises is cant be seen at all.. ur so called promises n effort is juz for few days to few weeks, u think this can be a promises that u gave me ma.. U think i still can give u how many 2yrs.. u young but i leh.. i already not young at all liao le.. u always said u can give me this n give me that.. but do u really think that u can do it ma.. i wanna type everything out is cos i wish this is de last time i said all this liao le.. i really very very tired of saying this repeating repeating and repeating.. 2yrs plus liao, we have encounter super alot of stuff.. u r de ever 1st bf that i encounter so many ups n downs together.. u can ask urself, how many chances i gave u.. u can think n if possible u can counted too.. i dare to said u cant count it de... cos i give u countless of chances n de chances i myself also cant count it too.. i myself cant count, u think u can count it out... u can imagine how many chances i give u.. always have things happen, i try to give u chance to show me better but not from bad to worst.. always i give u chance den i need to try or force myself to be so lovely to u again.. u know wat.. starting i can try try n try but now i feel that my try is no useful at all liao le.. starting quarrel wit u, i will cry till so jialuck but now.. i feel heart very pain n hurt but now i hardly cry.. or shld said this r/s i cant cry anymore liao le.. this meaning is it numb??? or really too tired.. i really dunnoe... =(

U last week did not book out.. and tml is fri le.. u will be booking out le.. haiz... this few days we keep on quarrels n quarrel.. it somehow that is from bad to worst liao.. u said wanna solve but somehow, i really dun have any intenion to solve.. cos i really very tired of saying de same thing.. really is de same thing.. i already said this issue for 2yrs plus liao le.. 2yrs plus liao.. u heard wont tired, but i said until i very tired liao le... do u know de words n de meaning of of speechless?? I really very speechless towards u.. sometime u did not book out, i somehow was so happy n relax.. u know y.. cos i can no need think that will quarrel wit u.. plus if i wanna rest or sleep den u wont said that i did not accompany u or so on.. sometime when i see ur face, it really made me damn sick...( sorry if i hurt u)i wit my colleagues go on or even my frenz(galfrenz)go take dinner u always wanna complain that i did not accompany u.. but please use ur common sense la.. weekday i go out, u said tml i need to work so i cant go too late.. den i said ok.. i repect u, so i choose to said ok.. but weekend is de day that i can wit my frenz go out late, but u said u weekend book out, if i go out den u need to be alone at hm.. still said wat y muz i go out when u book out.. u think i wanna de ar.. weekday go out den i cant reach hm so late cos i next day got work if not u said me that since i know that i work on de next day den still reach hm so late.. if weekend i go den u said i give u alone at hm n cant accompany u.. still said to me since i know that u weekend go out den wat for still go out at weekend.. next day of weekend is i off day.. weekend i go out wit my frenz den u unhappy... weekend i go out wit my frenz u also unhappy.. i really dunnoe wat u wanna... i juz wanna wit my frenz go out n do on.. but always i choose de day u always unhappy..

U always said that u love me n wanna care n concern plus wanna dote me too..(even though i really like u to sayang me) but do u think that i really happy ma... sometime even u wanna sayang me or hug me, i will choose to push u away n so on.. always force me to do the thing that i dun like.. is not sometime... is always!!! ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS!!!

Always said wat, u show de improvement den end up juz 1small thing den ur effort down de drain.. but if think de other way.. u ownself still can said is the same thing den we quarrel.. but y u did not change for de better.. even is a small thing but we quarrel for this issue for 2yrs plus.. do u really think that this is really is a small issue ma... u still dare to speak up that this is a small issue ma?? From last time till now u really change for bad to worst.. really from bad to worst.. sometime i really wish that u can let go of me... cos i wit u really very xing gu.. not xing gu for de cash or so on.. is keep on repeating n repeating de same issue.. 2yrs plus le.. u so called de small issue have not solve, u think we still can until marry ma... u think we still can happily ever after ma... Past few days, u keep on said that i treat u very cold n so on.. u know u made me really very disappointed liao but u always from bad to worst... ur so called de effort is always awhile only.. always less than 1week.. or longest about 2weeks plus to 3weeks.. ur effort wont stay long at all.. den u still dare to said that ur effort down de drain.. ur so called effort is damn short, den how can this name as effort.. ur so called small issue den how can this 2yrs plus we still quarrel de same things?? y?? can tell me y???

sometime i wanna a cool down period but u insisted dun let go.. u insisted said no need cool down period at all.. den i said ok lo.. since u dun wanna cool down period den ok lo.. so u cant blame me that i angry over de head de ma.. i juz said that i wanna relax myself, i dun wish to be disturb.. or else i sure will blast out.. i juz give u warning.. or else later said i throw temper or so on.. but u said wat to me.. u said i threatening u.. HELLO!!! i general remind u den u said i threatening u.. if i juz blast my temper den u said y i cant give in n y muz i throw temper to u.. u tell me lo.. wat shld i do.. or shld i keep quiet... but if i keep quiet den u said i did not heard u speak n did not listen to u.. i give u warning, u said i threatening, i blast my temper u said i till now cant control my temper, i keep quiet den u said i did not heard u speak n listen to u.. i really dunnow wat u wanna me to do.. either it or wat i also cant do.. den wat u wanna me to do.. i wanna settle this issue long time ago.. but when finish solving den haven 1week den this issue happen again... i really dunnoe how to solve...